Eshel Out Loud

News, Views, and Updates from the Eshel Community

Rest, Reflection, Renewal

Rest, Reflection, Renewal

After fifteen years of holding Eshel - its vision, its people, its future - I spent three months letting it go. Not abandoning it, but doing something that can feel almost countercultural in the nonprofit world: stepping back. No emails, no meetings, no decisions. Just rest, reflection, travel, family, and the uncomfortable gift of unstructured [more]
Out in Shushan

Out in Shushan

  The Megillah is, among its many faces, a story about the complexities of identity. A number of its characters are imposters of sorts, struggling to be something that they are not. However, according to Rabbi Yonason Eibshitz, while this may be true of Achashverosh, Haman and even Esther, Mordechai alone does not live a [more]
If You Will It

If You Will It

“If you will it, it is no dream.” Im tirtzu, ein zo agadah. Theodor Herzl was speaking about a homeland for the Jewish people. But as I look back on the Shabbaton I recently experienced, those words feel deeply personal to me. For many years, Eshel has been a lifeline for Orthodox parents of LGBTQ+ [more]
New Queer Resolutions

New Queer Resolutions

It’s a new year, and a time full of opportunity to reflect and plan and grow. What will 2026 hold for us? What are we striving towards? What are some goals, big or small, that can help guide us this year? We asked some of the Eshel staff, and this is what they said: I [more]
Lighting Up the Darkness

Lighting Up the Darkness

I remember being ten years old and feeling uncomfortable as I tried to explain to my Christian friends in public school what Chanukah is about. The miracle of an oil lamp lasting eight days just doesn’t have the punch of the birth of the baby Messiah. While both holidays celebrate light in the midst of [more]
What’s in a Strategic Plan?

What’s in a Strategic Plan?

At my first Eshel retreat in 2010, I remember feeling like the idea of queer Orthodox community, or a true observant future was unfathomable. I couldn’t wrap my head around the idea that parents would support their children coming out. I assumed the shuls and schools I grew up in would never engage in conversations [more]