Eshel Out Loud

News, Views, and Updates from the Eshel Community

We Don’t Grieve Alone

We Don’t Grieve Alone

It is not good for humanity to be alone. לֹא־טוֹב הֱיוֹת הָאָדָם לְבַדּוֹ Loneliness is the first aspect of creation judged to be bad by God. Yet it is this deep sense of loneliness we are called to experience on Tisha B’av. אֵיכָה  יָשְׁבָה בָדָד - How lonely sits the city once great with people. [more]
Three Weddings, One Marriage

Three Weddings, One Marriage

I was married three times, to the same person. Our first wedding was almost everything I could have hoped for - spiritual, communal, religious, and deeply meaningful. The only problem was that legally, it was meaningless. In 2004, Mara and I got married in front of 240 of our closest friends and family. It marked [more]
The Rainbow of Belonging

The Rainbow of Belonging

When I began working for Eshel in June one year ago, one of my first questions was “why are there no rainbows in our logo? Aren’t we proud?” I learned quickly that Eshel’s theory of change is not about just declaring our queer identity - it is about being part of our Jewish community, not [more]
The True Meaning of Pride

The True Meaning of Pride

Since October 7, social media and real-life encounters changed my experience of the world as a Jew: for the first time, I am repeatedly encountering people who think I should feel ashamed to be Jewish. While this is a foreign experience for me as a Jew, it is utterly familiar to me as a lesbian. [more]
10 Years of Welcoming Shuls

10 Years of Welcoming Shuls

For the past ten years, Eshel has been searching for shuls for LGBTQ+ Jews - individuals and families - who want to be part of a frum community. Since the founding of the Welcoming Shuls Project, I have spoken with almost 300 shuls and Rabbis. We work with large and small congregations, independent minyanim, and [more]
Lightening the Load

Lightening the Load

  The journey for most Orthodox parents with a child who is LGBTQ is long and emotional. The social and mental journeys we go through can be difficult, stressful, and joyous. However the most rewarding journey many of us take is the physical trip to Pearlstone Retreat Center for the Eshel Annual Parent Retreat. What [more]